Happy Mom..most of the time!

I’ve been at my “new job” for about three months now, so I thought I’d give an update on how things are going.  Being at home with the kids is both wonderful and challenging.  I’ve heard mothers say it is the toughest but most rewarding jobs they’ve ever had and I’ve never really understood this statement until now!

Let’s start with the obvious…not having to set your alarm each morning and instead being woken up by the quiet voice of your (almost) three year old son is priceless.  Being able to see my younger son crawl for the first time and then pick up speed when he sees me is indescribable. Giggling all together as we tickle each other and make silly faces and then all fall asleep for an afternoon nap – precious!  There are so many moments like these that make this “job” one that I would never trade for the world.

However, there are days when I am so exhausted that coffee just can’t even touch the surface of the energy I need to keep up with these boys.  When my older son is in a mood and ends up in time out more times then I can count.  When I barely get a chance to comb my hair (even if it does have food still in it) and get out of my pjs before it is dinner time.   Yet the hardest part of the days for me are wondering to myself “am I doing a good job?”

I good friend of mine (who just had a baby herself and it already so wise!) assured me that I am still going through a transition and trying to get the hang of things. And I simply need to “give it time”.  I can’t assume that all other mothers out there are showered and primped with all the laundry done and homes immaculate with dinner ready to go by 5…..that just isn’t reality!  For now, I’m learning to measure my success by hearing my son tell me “Mommy you’re special” and when my husband kisses me and says “thanks for dinner hun” even when it’s just Mac and Cheese.