Blah Days

Life right now is feeling a bit like my blog…neglected!  I’ve been having a bit of Groundhog Day syndrome lately, just feeling strained for things to “do” and not really wanting to do the things I should be doing.  Like now, during nap time, I am choosing to catch up on emails and well frankly, take a little me time, to write.  I get a bit stuck between doing things for “me” and doing things for the kids.

For example, I love walking and have been taking my son walking with me (he on his bike) each morning.  Part of me feels guilty that I’m not at the park pushing him on a swing or coming up with some grand play plan for the day and we’re simply walking.  I do feel so refreshed after getting that little bit of exercise in and I know it is fun for him as well – I think I just need to give myself a bit of a break.  It is ok to allow Funny to play with his cars for an hour, while I load the dishwasher and throw in a load of laundry…right?

We must look and be perfect, have the house immaculate and play creative and learning games with our children so they thrive in all aspects of life…no?I’m not sure where I got the idea of this “ideal” stay at home mom – maybe the 50′s?  Although most of us realize they those moms were on prescription medication..!

There is a strange pressure I feel being at home with the kids.  It is like you have to constantly be doing something for the kids or the home and how dare you take a few minutes to paint your nails or read a book of your own..because that would be slacking!  Plus it is strange that you are home all day and yet need a “break” or time to yourself – how is that possible?  Well let me tell you it is.  You must take care of yourself in order to take care of your family and if that means taking a walk each day or resting while the kids rest, then so be it!